what to do now

YouTube - Foreigner-I Want to Know What Love Is
The other day we went to a friends house (our ex husbands are friends so we used to hand around when the kids were small, any way we were watching a video of xmas in 94 and 95 !!!! man about 15 years ago and how we used to be closed and we were a family an actually family and made me so sad !!! because all of that is gone and how easy can get away from you .. Many man unfortunately do not appreciate that while they have it ... its funny my ex calls me asking me what we did to each other when we were together because now he has it worse with his new woman and he is just tire of everything just like i am of my relationship he is everything i never wanted on a man (too bad the sex was good while it lasted ) its been a week since he moved to the couch (to make me suffer (ha please i can be in my bed and sleep so good i do not miss him at all . I do miss having someone to love me and to talk to i spend 24/7 with my daughter and i need another adult to talk to or just for company !!! i cut my hair last week i actually cut 9 inches of my hair to start the new year and new life i am going to start working out but my feet its killing me and the freaky insurance its not going true its so sad to work for SO many years and paid your taxes now that i need this freaking government i can even get insurance wow its just bad

!!!!! OK i can not get depress things are getting better day by day with steph my daughter and maybe i can go back to work soon but there is so much to do still with her !!! OK i need to start going swimming or something to keep my head straight and no depression in this house i need to clean this house get rid of everything i do not need, give it away and move on including my man !!! Its funny when we were teens we wanted to be adults so bad so we could drink, do anything with out anyone telling us what to do !!! now we want to go back being kids but with what we know it would be so wonderful !!! imagine to have the knowledge to know what to do and been only maybe 20 !!!! oh yea and lets not forget ladies our sexuality would be so wonderful but that is only a dream and dreams are free so lets do it just dream on !!!!!!